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Losing weight sucks! It is some much easier and enjoyable to gain weight. Gaining weight involves eating, and usually happens because you don't think about what you eat. Losing weight requires making choices about the foods, which nourish the body.
Today, I weigh in at Weight Watchers, and since I know I paid no attention to whatever I popped into my mouth this week I am in a bad mood. I will probably gain weight tonight. I should not let this affect my moods but it does.
I have undertaken the task of losing weight. I know it will make me a healthier person. I know by losing weight that I will be less likely to develop many diseases. I say I want to lose weight because "I want to be alive to see my children grow up."
Great motivational philosophy, but it's not working as well as I would like. I lack one really important tool for weight loss. I seem to be unable to give anything to myself. On my list of tasks, concerns and priorities, I am the bottom dweller. One of my biggest assets, the ability to give of myself, is also my largest flaw. I hate irony!
This is how I get into trouble. Most of the time when it comes to eating, I am just going to eat whatever is easiest and convenient because I don't want to take the time to do the proper preparation. Making a shopping list is time consuming, shopping is even more time consuming (and let's not even discuss the sticker shock at the store), cooking adds more time. Its amazing that in the business world, I truly believe that taking time to organize thoughts and work, before actually undertaking a project is worthwhile. Usually the project proceeds in an orderly manner, and eventually time is saved because I don't have to deal with a lot of unexpected problems. I need to convince myself that the time invested in food preparation is "of value".
Close friends know I have been trying to lose weight, but I don't talk much about it. Now I am
"going public." Perhaps by being open with others, I will be open and trusting with myself. For any of you who would like to join me on my journey or if you are just interested in health/fitness issues, I am going to start a web site dealing with weight loss. The site, Weigh Less Road, will contain progress reports, food journals, health and fitness articles, and links to health/fitness/weight loss site. Maybe we can get reports from others who are watching their weight.
Losing weight is the second hardest task I have undertaken. Physically bearing children is by far the hardest task I have ever attempted. My kids prove that undertaking an impossible task is definitely awarding, so I expect the reward of weight loss will also be great.
July 18, 2000 |
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